Dec 27, 2023
Some people think that life is largely against us, that life is
the roll of the dice. As Einstein said, “The dice of God are always
loaded.” It means that life doesn’t just happen, but life happens
just. There is order. There is a certain pattern and lawfulness to
life.
Chaos theory says if you step back far enough from what appears
to be random chaos, you will see a pattern. You will see order. The
Universe is not chaotic. It is chaortic.
What I really mean by ‘why life is set up to fail you’ is
something I call the great betrayal, or the big betrayal. It’s best
to tell you by means of a story…
The basic story is how years ago when I was first on a spiritual
path, and I had pulled out of society for the most part to go on
this inward journey. I was doing all of the right things. I was
doing so much deep inner work, and there was a lot of great
benefits for it, a level of peace and joy and creativity that was
emerging. At the same time, as that was emerging my bank balance
was submerging. It was collapsing. It was going away, and
eventually I found myself broke, literally living on a prayer, and
sitting in my meditation chair in the middle of the room with a
bill collector knocking at the back door and the landlord knocking
at the front door, on the verge of being evicted. Having no human
means to support myself anymore.
I was, to be quite honest, pissed off at God. I had what I call
my Gary Sinise moment. I don’t think Forest Gump was even out at
that point, but I know call it my Gary Sinise moment. Where he’s in
Forest Gump, and he’s on the mast of the ship, and shaking his fist
at the heavens and the storm and saying, “Bring it on, God.” I
didn’t understand. How did all my efforts get me back to this place
again where I was once again broke? I remember saying, “This stuff
is either a bunch of BS, or there’s something real here. One way or
the other I’m not getting up from this chair until I know. I’m not
going to go through this cycle again and again anymore. I’m
done.”
I sat in that meditation chair, and I sat and sat. Daylight
turned to dusk. The crickets come out for their nightly chorus, and
I began to wrestle my demons and get pinned to the floor.
At some point in the middle of the night this awareness broke
through, and I don’t know if it was a voice or a thought, but it
was definitely Divine awareness of guidance. It said, essentially,
“You made your savings account your God.”
I had basically had a savings account, a nest egg, and I was
leaving that alone as a form of security, but then putting all my
extra things or whatever I was doing beyond any money that was
coming in, if I needed more money I was just putting it on credit
cards. I had built up this credit card debt, but I wasn’t touching
the next egg. Little bit by little bit it dwindled until it was
pretty much nothing. It said, “You made that savings account your
God, your Source.” Essentially, thou shalt have no other gods
before me. I half expected to turn around and see Moses there
holding a tablet up, looking strangely like Charlton Heston!
As soon as that awareness broke through this peace came over me.
It was like this pressure valve released, and all the stress
drained away. The insight that came was that it’s literally
designed this way – that you don’t put anything outside of you as
your God, as your Source. When you make anything outside of you
your Source of safety, supply, security, or support, it’s designed
to fail you.
The reason is because when you make something outside of you
your source what starts to happen? You start to give away your
power to that thing or person you think is your Source.
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